Apparently at some point during these last six months I have let a few things slide. My youngest Ashlyn was having a hard time sleeping in her own room after her Daddy moved out, so I decided that I should let her sleep with me whenever she needed to. Well as I was clinging to the side of my King size bed like Spiderman, freezing to death and starring at a 28lb bed hog snoring away as cozy as could be, I thought what in the world am I doing?
As Moms we do this thing where we give every piece of ourselves until we have nothing left to give, and we wonder why it becomes more and more difficult to give with joy to our children, family and friends. You can't give what you don't have....giving from an empty place is like trying to drive your car without gas, you may be able to coast on fumes for a while but eventually you will have to get out and walk. I have coasted to this point and now its time to get out and walk...and then refuel myself.
So tonight, I put the little bed hog back in her own bed. This Mommy needs her own space and a good night sleep and I won't apologize for my need for that. I'm no longer buying into the guilt trips. It is okay for me to enjoy time alone, and its okay for me to do things for myself. The only trips I will be buying into in the near future is Vegas trips!
I'm giddy at the thought that I will have the whole bed to myself tonight....celebrating with a glass of wine and some mindless t.v.
As Moms we do this thing where we give every piece of ourselves until we have nothing left to give, and we wonder why it becomes more and more difficult to give with joy to our children, family and friends. You can't give what you don't have....giving from an empty place is like trying to drive your car without gas, you may be able to coast on fumes for a while but eventually you will have to get out and walk. I have coasted to this point and now its time to get out and walk...and then refuel myself.
So tonight, I put the little bed hog back in her own bed. This Mommy needs her own space and a good night sleep and I won't apologize for my need for that. I'm no longer buying into the guilt trips. It is okay for me to enjoy time alone, and its okay for me to do things for myself. The only trips I will be buying into in the near future is Vegas trips!
I'm giddy at the thought that I will have the whole bed to myself tonight....celebrating with a glass of wine and some mindless t.v.
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