Optional

Haven't had the energy to blog in a few days. Lots going on, and my mind is reeling. I am my own worst enemy when it comes to over thinking pretty much everything. I feel like I have hit emotional overload and when that happens I tend go into shut down mode. I kind of wish I would go directly into that mode instead flying into the  say whatever the hell you are thinking mode. Although its good to get it out, I need to work on delivery and timing...never been my strong suit.

Having to stare down my insecurities the past few weeks and it has pushed me to my limits. I can't figure out why I continually make excuses for people when they hurt me. Its almost as though I think I somehow deserve to have my importance minimized. I have taken the back seat to almost everyone in my life for as long as I can remember. Opitional....is how I am feeling. Time to take a few steps back...I keep trying to sprint through this process, but I keep tripping over all the emotional obstacles being thrown my way. Time to clear the course and focus on whats important.
 


Chin up...head down and one step at a time as my brother would say.